1st degree burn. The reward of a responsible child :) keep up the good work. LOL. XD #memories #irony #sarcasm #love (at Cereza Residence)
Journal done! Time to take a rest :) Gonna do the research work laterrr :) #rest #dailyjournalcheck #instaforGod #zzzzz (at Cereza Residence)
Good morning! Have a blessed day :) Thank You Lord for this wonderful sunrise! #goodmorning #praise #awesome #instaforGod #iger (at Cereza Residence)
You might reeeeeally like you boyfriend or girlfriend but how do you know if it’s more than that? Here are some clues to tell if they are “the one”?
1. You still get excited to see them. Even if you’ve been together for a long time, if you still get butterflies…
Am I in-love or out of love?
Am I hopeful or hopeless in love?
Am I dating now the right man or not?
Am I experiencing the real love now?
Am I falling in love or failing in love?
Things aren’t going well the way I expect them to be. It’s been days already since my whole world twisted that I don’t know how to get things back on the right track. It seems everything in my life is ruined; my relationship to my mother, my perception towards my friends, my trust to those people I used to open up everything in my life, my status at school and the financial needs that must be met for my school and everyday expenses. I feel like my whole world crashing down. It caused me a lot of depression, anxiety and worry that I even started hating myself and the life God gave me. Yet, I didn’t blame God for what I’m going through. Though my hopes are like fading and the devil seem to make me wander in his evil desires, I thank God He never left me and let me fall in the deepest snares of the devil for me. Those experiences could have been a way for me to rebel, right? That could have been the opportunity for me to give up and go back to my worldly self, but God has been faithful to me. He saved me from the thoughts that could have damage my entire life.
Last night I was like a weakened and wounded soldier in the battle who really wanted to give up. I was lying on my bed, I can’t sleep and I was full of heartaches. I was pressured, pressed and crushed until such time that I couldn’t think of anything to do but pray. I sat down, bowed down my head and started crying. I let go of everything that I was going through and cried it all to God. I lifted all of my burdens to God knowing that He cares for me more than any person in my life can do. He listens and He comforts. God has really His own way of delivering you out of the torment you are undergoing in life. God indeed sees each heart that cries out to Him.
I really believe God has wonderful plans for each one of us. We may not see it clearly, but God still gives us the water to clear our eyes and see the things He really wanted to happen. We may be blinded by our problems and worries, but God is still the light that gives us hope in the midst of darkness. We may not seem to understand the trials we are facing but God still gives us the answer in His own perfect time. God is just waiting for us to pause for a while, kneel down, open our hearts to Him, let go of the pain and be still and wait for His solutions. I know it wasn’t easy, I’ve been there and I know I will still be going through a lot of it in the future. Just always remember that the most important thing to remember when you think you’re not on the right track is to PRAY and BE STILL that our GOD is GREAT and nothing is impossible in Him.
That overwhelming feeling when he sent you a message after weeks of waiting for his first move :)
That wonderful feeling when you started to have spontaneous conversation .
That confusing feeling when he seems to talk to you as a friend only.
That more confusing feeling when his friend started to like you.
That stupid feeling when you decided to start dating with his friend.
That uncertain feeling of what will happen in the future =/
I want you to be aware of the fact that I HATE YOU. I hate you for being like that, I hate you for treating me like this but I even hate myself more for letting you do this to me. Don’t worry, it won’t be for long anyway. Maybe hours from now I’ll forget about it and learn to forgive you. Who are you to be a big issue in my life anyway? I won’t let you make me a slave of this hatred and a prisoner of this pain, NEVER! Well, I just wrote it here because I can’t contain anymore. I may sound a “villain” to you, but that’s how I feel and I have nothing to do about it.
Anyway, I want to thank you for molding me and for challenging me to be a tougher person. I never regret knowing you because at some point of my life, you taught me to be what I must be, to think mature and to be stronger. You’ve been a great influence in my life to what I am right now. Though I learned to hate because of you, I also learned to overcome it. We’ve known each other for a long time already and I admit that what we had will not eventually be erased in my thoughts and in my heart. I know it takes time to let go and it takes time to wait for someone better. I know it’s not you whom I’m gonna spend my entire life with in the first place. There are many concerns regarding us. Firstly, the distance that separates us. You know it’s hard right? We’re very far from each other and a text message or a chat cannot really define a relationship. Secondly, I don’t trust you enough. I know you’re aware of that since you’ve betrayed me many times already. But I am still trying to forget and forgive you for almost a year already or two. Because you think that everything’s fine with me , I won’t get angry anyway so you keep on lying to me as if I never knew. Lastly, both of us always has our pride that dominate us. I know you would laugh at this cause I’m hitting the spot already. I know I was right when I said that it’s the PRIDE that has been a great issue here. Haha! This really made me laugh. Well, that’s reality and we have to accept it.
Yet, you know I love you whatever happens. I know this love will soon fade away as time goes by and I hope you do too. I don’t want to elaborate it anymore, I hope you’ll soon realize my importance. You know I’ve treasured you every second of my life. You’re always on my mind though I often keep myself busy with anything. It’s still you whom I long to talk to and share my concerns with. But I know I sometimes failed to express my feelings for you. I hope you understand that I’m just not too expressive before as what I am right now. You know there are times that I really wanna hug you tight, hold your hand, tell you “I love you” and eat with you at the resto. I wanna go with you at school, buy your favorite snacks, talk to your friends, do homeworks and school projects with you and do all the stuffs that lovers often do. I wanna be with you all the time, give you your favorite food when you’re sad, comfort you when you’re depressed, or just simply be there with you during the toughest times of your life. There are many things I want us to do together but it’s just impossible. If only everything was perfect, I’d be the happiest girl that ever lived. But, I guess we’re already at the stage of giving up. I’m tired of understanding you, and letting you feel how important you are to me. I know you have your efforts too and I want you to know that I really appreciate every little thing you do though I seldom express it. Everything that you do in your own simple way makes me realize how blessed I am to know you, to love you and to be loved by you. We’ve been through a lot already and I hope whatever we had will remain in your heart. Though you may find someone better someday, I hope you will still treasure and value the relationship we had. I’m not trying to say goodbye now, I’m still hoping that we’ll see each other soon. Hope we’ll be friends no matter what. I will always miss you, my only Baby …
Hugs and kisses,
” So let’s please be like that old couple holding hands, with 50 years and more under our wedding pens. And seasons will come and go and time will grow and change, but until my very last breath is truth will still remain.
There’s no other hand I’d rather hold. No other warmth to chase away my cold. No other life I’d rather share. No other home unless you’re there.”